Originally this blog was created as a written outlet for my weight-loss (or lack thereof) frustrations. I was hoping that in writing down my inner thoughts about my system and my own solutions that maybe I could somehow see my faults and fix them. I still plan on using this as such, however, I realized that Dropin' Poundage is more than weight-loss to me. I have had a VERY hectic and almost brutal few weeks. As I have stated before I work 3 jobs outside of my home. I clean my church, I clean homes, and I work part-time as a receptionist at a local hair salon. Lately, somethings have really slapped me in the face and have come into focus. It all started with a simple " Oh I'll do it tomorrow". Sounds familiar right? Don't we use the same excuse with exercise? Anyway, one day passed, then two, then four.. you get the point and before I knew it my dishes were pilled in the sink (no dishwasher), the laundry baskets were over flowing, toys where everywhere, floors needed sweeping, and well you get the picture before I throw myself under the bus.
I would work all day outside my home, running around like a mad woman trying to get my work and errands done, and I was/am neglecting my own place of refuge. I am not supposed to feel stressed when I come home because I have gotten so far behind in my chores that I don't even want to be there. I should look forward to coming home, to put my feet up and RELAX! and this is defiantly NOT happening. On top of the self disappointment of un-done chores, I start realizing that the home is not just for me but for my children and my husband. And how is my taking care of my home reflecting on the life I am providing for them? Long story short.. I was a hot mess.
On top of all that I found out my dog has fleas, I had a mouse living upstairs in my craft room, and I had a very painful abscess on my back that needed draining. to be honest, I felt dirty! I felt like a dirty person who couldn't take care of her home or herself and I was diseased. I had a melt down to my best friend, my Mom and my poor unsuspecting husband, who actually handled it with grace and kindness.
I say all that to say this.. I need to Drop some Poundage in my LIFE. My body still needs that no doubt, but I can't help but think all this stress in my life is hindering my success with my body.
I am a woman of faith. I believe that God will provide for me and take care of me and my family. I do however, have a problem with totally trusting and letting go and letting God. I know that he will help me see the answer to my needs, but I get in my own head, and try to figure this out for myself. I have been in a constant state of debate with myself to decide where to cut back to have a more stress free life, and more time for the things that really matter to me. Not money, not jobs or girls night outs, not even weight-loss. God made me to take care of my household and my family. I should put them first above all else in my life, and I have just realized that I have been putting them as far aside as possible. Sure I am still present, but I am not taking care of them as I was created to do.
My family and I will be taking a 5 day trip to visit some old wonderful friends. I plan to also use this time to separate myself from my situations and try to just pray and listen. I KNOW that I will loose one of the things I really enjoy doing, but by this I will be gaining my hold back on my God given role as a wife and mother.
Dropin' Poundage isn't just for your body, it's for your mind, soul and LIFE! If you can take a step back and really evaluate somethings in your life, can you use to Drop some Poundage?
