Awakening

So I realize that what I am about to write might make me seem a bit crazy. With that being said I must admit that I have voices in my head. Not to beat an old drum, but with the sad fact that I have never really followed through with any of my fitness goals I have never met the person inside my head that yells at me, we can call her TRINA
I am still trying to follow the 12 week half marathon training program. By " Trying" I mean that within the 4 weeks I have had a Colorado trip/cold and I have another vacation coming up this next week, which has made it hard to do the miles every day. But I am doing my best to get the miles in a week that the program requires.
I first met Trina week 2. I was supposed to run 4 miles. The longest distance I had run in a few years. The gym I go to has a childcare room, but it closes at 12. So I went in on my lunch break, but I got there late. I was only almost 2.5 miles in and I only had just over 15 minutes until the room closed. I had been averaging a 10 min. mile, so I was concerned that I wasn't going to be able to finish on time, plus I was getting tired.Once I get 2 reasonably good excuses in my head, I usually can quit with a clear conscious ( hence the never following through). Just as I was about to quit, Trina started talking to me. Telling me that all I had to do was pick up my pace and I could complete the miles. After a few minuets of bantering, I was at 3.5 miles with about 5 minuets left. Still trying to quit, she kept yelling at me. SHE WON.. It was the strangest experience. I felt better and accomplished although I wouldn't admit that to Trina!
Trina went into hiding after that, but not for long. She started yelling at me yesterday when I wanted to eat my chicken breast SMOTHERED in cheese. There wasn't that much left in the package, and I DO LOVE cheese. I had been good for the past 4 weeks, this little bit won't hurt me.. She keeps yelling at me that it's not worth it, I already had been sipping a soda and I was getting lazy.. I WON. I smothered that chicken with yummy melted cheese and I enjoyed every bite, washed it down with some Sprite. I decided that I wasn't going to run because. I had a long night the night before, I didn't pack my clothes, and it was COLD outside. THREE great excuses!! Trina tried to get her 2 cents in, and my 2 friends who are doing the program with me were trying to encourage me... Nope wasn't going to go.... YELLING! She wouldn't stop! I tried to tune her out, but then I mentioned to my husband that I 'needed' to run, but I didn't want to head out after just getting home. Then my husband did something that surprised me. He told me that I would feel better if I did, and that he would wait to cook supper until I get back! UGH OK I'll go.
It was 30 degrees outside, it was starting to sleet, the sun was going down and my belly was full of delicious melted cheese, chicken and sprite. It was hard at first and Trina took that opportunity to remind me that she was right about eating that stuff and I should listen to her from now on.
I didn't get the full 5 miles I was supposed to run, but I did run just over 3. I was happy that I got out, I DID feel better, and I am thankful for the people in my life that don't accept my excuses and push me. If you have never had someone in your head yelling at you to help you get better I hope you meet them soon. I am surprised and happy that I have one! So get off your couch, do something that makes you happy, and get active! Lets Drop that Poundage together!!!

Commitment

I know I am supposed to post Part 2 of my Resolution post, but I quickly have something I would like to share with you. Back in 2002 I was training to do a relay marathon with some girlfriends at Harding. I wasn't an every day runner, but I made it on the pavement at least 3 times a week. I was really excited to try this race. In January of 2003 I discovered I was pregnant with the first of my 3 babies. Long story short, I never got to run that race. Since that time, I have been and on again off again kind of runner. I'd run with friends, do a few 5K's here and there, but never really committed to it. I don't think it's a big secret that I have poor mental stamina. I have a hard time encouraging myself and really pushing myself unless there is someone there doing it for me. I guess it is easier for me to let myself down and no one really know about it, but when there are witnesses I guess I have to seem stronger.
Well part of this years Resolution Revolution is that I will run my first half marathon. I WILL DO IT! I have a few friends who enjoy running that I know will encourage me and do it with me and that makes it a lot easier for me to look forward to this race.
I did some looking online and found a 12 week training program for beginners. I printed it off and decided that I can follow this. I am close to completing week 3. And aside from the constant state of sore my body is in, the sore knees and back, I feel good, motivated, accomplished. So far the average mileage a week is about 19-20 miles. This is by far the most miles my body has suffered through consecutively in my whole life. I ran track in high school, but never this distance, this often. NOPE.
I have to say, I must pat myself on the back. I finally admitted out loud in my last post about never being able to finish something. Sad but awesome at the same time is, this is one of the first things I have followed through with. I know I still have 9 weeks left with a vacation thrown in there, but I know I can do this.
 I know this won't be easy. I have had many inner mental fights with myself while on the run.  Knock out fights where if my inner self was 2 people standing in front of me, One Motivating and the other Lazy Hinderer, they would be wrestling on the floor. I will continue to be inspired and motivated by those who have similar goals as mine, and just remind myself of the reward I will have after crossing that finish line.
Well that's all. Thanks for reading and I'll get on that Part 2, soon. Happy Dropin'.