Tuesday, June 12, 2012

Back in the Saddle

To be honest, the reason I haven't posted on here for a while is I felt like a broken record. ' I will REALLY do it this time.' or ' I know that NOW I need to really change my eating.' And like all the records before this one, I would really do it for a while. I would do what I said I would, and yes I would feel better, but then I would just stop. Either because I was doing so well I thought I could "treat myself", or I just simply stoped.
I am not posting today to say that Im going to do it this time around becuase I'm sure I will stop at some point. The thing is, I have 2 really big things that I would love to do. Things that will require me to get serious about endurance and strength training. Things that I know I'll regret NOT doing. The first one is a 5K called The Warrior Dash. A few years ago, a friend of mine sent me an email as a joke with information about this outrageous 5K obstical course. Though, she really sent it to me as a " yeah right, this would kill us but look at all the crazies that do it", I was so pumped about it. I wrote her back and said " LET"S DO IT!". that was 2 years ago. This year, I'm in a postion where I really could do it. My kids are older now, so I can sneak away and run for a bit, and get in the gym. I have been doing that atleast twice a week already but now I'm thinking I better pick up the pace. So for my birthday I asked my husband to pay mine AND HIS registration fee and he has to do it with me. It's pretty pricey for a 5K, but the memories will be worth it, and I figure a military style obstical course would make it more inticing for the guys. So we have a pretty big group going..
The second thing is the MS150. Its a 150 mile bike tour in Missouri. I know the MS150 is nation wide and well known among avid bikers, however I just learned about it a few months ago. 2 years ago, my wonderful Mom brought me her old bike from Colorado. She paid for a tune up for me to get it ready to ride. Sadly, the bike, new tune up and all, sat in my garage for a year. This year I have been getting it out more and realized I really enjoy riding. A friend later told me about the tour and I was instantly eager to sign up. I did some research online to see what I would need to do to prepare for such a long tour. To be honest, what I found discouraged me a little. 'You need to average 50-60 miles a week' one biker wrote. 'atleast 4-6 hours on your bike a day.' another one suggested. Now, I can manage an hour run, or even 2 hours at the gym, but 6 hours riding my bike is a little far fetched for a wife and mother of 2 kiddos. But I had to keep in mind, these are AVID bikers. A marathon runner will tell me I need to run 10 miles for a daily JOG. Im in a diffrent leaque than they are, and although they are more experienced than I am, I can't be discouraged because of that.
The bike tour does offer a shorter, easier route, but for now Im aiming to do the full 150. I even have a few friends who would join my team if I created one. So alas, for my birthday from the rest of my family and friends I have asked that they donate money to help me raise enough to enter in the MS150.
I could ask for many things that I want, but this is something that not only I,but others will benifit from too. It is also encouraging me to get out and burn those calories. I am motivated to, not kill myself, but challenge myself to get stronger for the 5K, and build endurance for the bike tour.
I would encourage anyone who gets bored just going to the gym day after day with no real goal, to look around your area and find those races and bike tours. You will find that there are a lot of people around you looking for the same kind of atmosphere. Your energy is diffrent when you surround yourself with people with similar goals. People to push you, people to encourage you, people to drag you out of your box.
So heres to getting out of my box and getting ready for september. If you live close to the Kansas City area, check out the Warrior Dash. Its September 29th in old Monroe, MO. and if you are close to the Jeff City area and would like to join my team, check out the MS150 to Columbia,MO. September 8-9. I'll post details on my team later. Join me in trying something you have never done before. Get out there and burn some calories, sweat A LOT, and feel amazing! Happy Dropin!

Friday, March 30, 2012

Clutter and Panelling

What is something that adds stress to my everyday life? CLUTTER. what makes that stress particularly hard to handle? PANELING! I have been in a battle with both of those things for 2 years. But 3 weeks ago I began raging the ultimate war to finally rule over them once and for all. My motivation was a visit from my Mom. We have lived in this wonderfully old home for 2 years, and yes, have had guests up there before (including my Mom). But this time, I decided that it was time to make improvements and revamp the finished attic in hopes that it would motivate me to keep it clean.
I'll share a secret with you. I am a terrible housekeeper. I clean homes for a living, and I am very good at what I do.what I am not good at is putting things away. I am also borderline hoarder.. not really, but I do have tendencies that I could see get away from me. I see use in everything. I keep all jars, boxes, ect. I believe that I could do something crafty with them or use them eventually. Our basement and attic storage is full of boxes filled with things. I also keep sentimental items. I believe I have every card ever given to me since I can remember, I still add to that collection, and I have kept all cards my husband and kiddos receive as well. I just like to look back at them, read them, remember when I got them, and yes I plan to do something crafty with them.
Anyway, my Mom is coming to visit ( she actually flies in tomorrow). My kids were going to be gone for a whole week camping with the In-Laws, I had a slow week with cleaning so I saw my opportunity and I grabbed that paint by the brush. It took me the entire week my kids were gone to paint. Paneling is hard and time consuming stuff. I'd rather just rip it out, but time and money didn't allow for that. You will see in the pictures to follow I had my work cut out for me. The playroom was a disaster to say the least. Toys everywhere! and not just big toys, little toys with lots of little parts, doll clothes, hot wheels, movies, blankets and yes I did find some dishes and food up there. My craft room was no better. fabric and scrap booking stuff covered my desk. Gift wrapping and books covered my floor and I was even using it as my closet! ( 1950's homes were built with TINY closets). The office area still had Christmas boxes out waiting to be put away and I had tons of papers to file. so you see, I really needed a week in solitary with no kiddos to distract or undo anything.
Long story short it took me 3 weeks to finish my attic. Toys sorted and organized, crafts too. Papers filed and Christmas stuff packed away until next winter. I finished it 2 days ago, and I did everything by myself. I am very proud of what I did. It was a daunting and very time consuming task that required a lot of late nights and sore back. But I think about what I did, and it really does motivate me to keep it clean. I enjoy going up there now, and I know that it is a usable space. before I go any further, here are the before and after pics.... enjoy.
Office area B and A

Hall way B and A

Playroom B and A
Craft Room B and A

I hope you can see the difference! I try to relate everything to health. So here is my health reference for the post. This time the poundage I dropped was Clutter and Paneling. but the moral is.. If I can motivate myself to do something so daunting and lets face it, UN-fun, then I should have no problem motivating myself to make better choices for my health. The liberation I felt after hanging that last picture on the wall was so great that I kept going upstairs just to walk around and admire the work I had done. So if I think of my body as my attic, I need to put in all the time and effort to revamp it and turn it into the space I need and want, and then I will be satisfied with the work I put into it and put forth the effort to take care of it. make sense? If not, that's OK. It's late and I am super excited to pick my Mom up from the airport tomorrow. I hope you find motivation to get that task done that has been on your "To Do" list. You will feel like you dropped a million pounds when you accomplish it! I leave you with a picture of my helper for the first day. Good luck and Happy Dropin'!

Tuesday, March 6, 2012

Ramblings and Revelations.

No weight talk today. The poundage I am dropin today is my own wound up thoughts. Lucky you. On top of the constant weight goals I have many other achievements and goals that I set and want to succeed at but never feel quite up to par to achieve them.

My wonderful Mom called me today and told me that she thinks I should become a writer. She told me that she enjoys the way I put words together. This is a reoccurring thought in my brain. Before leaving college I was an English major. I have always LOVED writing reports. When I say Love, I mean I would be that nerd in the back of your high school English class to jump up and down and run to the library after school to start doing research. Words come pretty easily to me at the computer. My brain moves fast, and my hand is way to slow to write. Sometimes I feel like my fingers know what I am about to say before my brain does. However, the dream of becoming a writer of any sort seems far fetched to me. I don't know what I would write. I'm defiantly NOT a Mercer Mayor, Dr. Seuss or Stephanie Meyer. So I know that I am not a novelist. I don't have a creative story mind. What I enjoy is research, or just what I am doing now.... blogging. but who would hire me? No BA, no experience, no credentials. No writer.

Another example. I was pretty good at playing the Flute. I started in 5h grade and played all the way through my senior year. I would battle it out for first chair many times. I never strayed from the first 2 chairs. got many solos, and even was in a regional honor band. I even got a music scholarship offer from Colorado Christian College. But alas, I didn't pursue music. Now I would give anything to play in a orchestra or something even on a smaller level. I am very rusty and feel I am too old to pursue that anymore. No time. No Musician.

Another. I was a good cheerleader in high school. Captain my senior year. I remember telling my Mom when I was about 8 that I wanted to be a Broncos Cheerleader when I grew up. I had great school spirit, I had no problem being in front of crowds and I was a pretty good dancer. I again didn't pursue that in college. Wanted to just "check everything out" first. Obviously I'm not 21 and a size 4, so No Cheer leading.

I love crafts. I love scarpbooking, sewing and just creating fun and unique things. I sometimes will create an original idea, but I mostly just use and revamp someone Else's. Someone has to think of it first right? I've tried to sell some purses but I do not feel right selling my work as it is not professional enough. I am more of a gift giver sewer. I have had many people tell me I should enter craft fairs and such. I just don't feel worthy or good enough yet to be selling anything I create. No confidence. No perfection. No craft merchant.

I sometimes feel like I am a being of almost, if that makes sense. Like I am good and a bunch of little things but not great and 1 thing to really focus on. Just like with my weight. I am good and getting exercise in, but I can never seem to get all the puzzle pieces together to really make it work. I had to sleep on this blog last night. I just felt like my words were going in a dark and pitiful direction, until I woke up. I do feel this way. Like why can't I just excel and ONE thing and make a living out of that, but then I wouldn't be me. I realized last night that I was focusing on the wrong part of myself. Yeah sure, I have many small talents, and maybe I will never do much with them, but I have a calling that is much more important.

I am a woman of faith.I live my life for Christ and I try to set an example to the world of what a Godly woman should be. I am very active in my church and I try to be an encouragement to others and a servant to them as well. I pray constantly, and although it is never easy to do, I do my best to lay all my hardships, sorrows and anxieties at His feet and trust in his will.I am a wife. I am married to a wonderful man. I try to treat him as the king of our family and make sure that his needs are met. I am a submissive wife, as the Lord calls me to be and I love and cherish him deeply. I am a Mother. I have 2 amazing children. I am their leader, care provider, protector, teacher and friend. I know that no matter what I will always be their mother. That is a talent that I can never and will never loose. They are my world and I would do anything for them. I know that they watch my every move and I must every day be mindful of the example I set for them. To them I am strong. To them I am the most talented person in the world. To them I am their everything.

With credentials like these I don't need the writing, the music, the cheer leading or the crafting. I just need to live up to the example that Christ has set for me and the level that my husband and children expect me to be. It's hard to not turn my focus in on ME. the world has programed us to think that way. I should have this. I deserve this. I. I. I. But if we think of the other lives we are affecting, we, well I realized that my "I" thoughts are destructive and selfish. Why do I need this great career when the things that matter to me the most are 10 feet from me? I can not hold music for comfort. A book does not talk back. I NEED my God and my family. That is all that matters.

I had a small revelation while writing this blog. Apologies if I rambled. I hope you too realize that although things may not be perfect or the way you planned, that you have exactly what the Lord wanted to provide for you at this moment, and that is exactly enough. No God. No Family. NO THANKS!

Monday, March 5, 2012

Tredmill

Hello fellow poundage losers. I hope your journey has been much more productive than mine. I have somewhat of a revalation of mine to share today. It's kind of a tough pill to swallow. I was cleaning a new home last week and every appliance in their kitchen was touch screen. While trying to wipe out the microwave, I noticed that the stove top/oven would randomly turn on.. After a few times, it hit me that the reason was my "over hang" as I like to call it, of my belly would skim the surface of the oven and turn it on. That in turn lead me to have to suck my "over hang" in and try to hold my mid-section away from the stove. I found this funny. Im not really sure if I REALLY thought it was funny, or if I was laughing at it becuase, although comical, it is a little depressing and I was trying to lighten the "UUUUGGGGGGG"-ness of it.

I told a friend this story, and she said, " Why do you think that is? I mean you work out ALL the time." And I do. I am at the gym 3-4 times a week, then all the calorie burning my job gives me. there is no reason why I should have over-hang getting in my way. Ive said it before and Ill say it until I can get it through my own head.. EATING. I just can't seem to decide to make the changes I need to gain some ground. I know that if I just change the eating, added to what I am already doing physically then I would get to where I want to be...... But I don't know why I'm not....

So as long as I keep this up, I will forever be on a treadmill. Not getting anywhere. I guess I'm just waiting for my AH HA moment and my size 8 pants to magically fit....

Tredmill.

Saturday, February 25, 2012

Ground Zero

This is officially the 5Th draft of this post. Why? because I wasn't quite clear about what I wanted to express. I have been struggling with many different emotions about My current weight state. I have thought about many things and have come to some real evaluations and decisions about my path I am on.

I created this blog for accountability for myself and also, I hoped that reading my struggles and growth, would help someone out there like me going through the same things to overcome them, and realize that this is what REAL weight-loss is, not celebrity quick fix. As for the accountability, FAIL! I am sad to announce that after weighing myself this morning, I am THE HEAVIEST I have EVER been (without pregnancy). 160 smack-a-roos.!!! I can feel it, and my clothes can too! nothing fits except my work out clothes and even those are getting a little snug. How did this happen right? I take at least 2 hard core classes at the gym, and get at least 2 more days of cardio in a week. I have an active job too.. so how? I know how, I've always known it, I just never wanted to do anything about it. EATING! I LOVE everything bad for me. and somehow I thought that if I killed it in the gym and ate those things in moderation (by my standard) that I would be OK and break even...not so obviously.

I was watching The Revolution on TV the other day, and the trainer stated it very clearly for me. If you don't WANT to loose weight, you WON'T! Simple as that. I tell myself that I want to loose weight and tone up, but obviously I really don't or I would have by now. I mean, I'm not extremely over weight. My weight isn't unhealthy or life threatening, so why would I really want to loose it? This is something I'm still thinking about.. I am still not sure if I have decided I really WANT to, but because my clothes aren't fitting I know I need to or I will go bankrupt buying size 12's instead of fitting into my size 10's.

I have thought about deleting this blog as well.. I haven't really committed to it, like I thought I would. Pattern? maybe. but after working out with a girlfriend tonight, and talking about it, I have come to another conclusion. I try to write this blog to entice people to read it. I have no clue if anyone is reading this or not. I will wait for some unique cool thought to happen in my head then try to be a real interesting writer. I have to remember why I created this thing... ACCOUNTABILITY!! So I'm going to try to reverse the hypocrisy I have created with myself and really use this as an online journal. hopefully I will log my days food and activity every night. I'm told this way you can really see what you are eating and doing and its more likely you will stick to it..

This isn't going to be an easy journey. I have many things working against me. A husband who has to eat everything, kids who need more than raw veggies and tofu and a very busy job that doesn't really allow me to eat every 3-4 hours. I'm going to have to figure some things out. Wish me luck, and good luck to you.. Here's to Dropin' Poundage... For REAL!

Thursday, January 26, 2012

Minor Set Back

So Today was supposed to be day 3 of my sibling challenge. The sad news is I like most of you have contracted the dreaded cold. I have been dead to the world for the past 2 days. Today is the first night I have felt human and able to get some sort of exercise in. I had to settle with my co-ed volleyball game and had to pass on the hardcore stuff. Hopefully I will be able to resume the challenge tomorrow. So this hurts the results a little bit.

I have only done the exercises once. Let me tell you they are MUCH harder than they look on paper. My brother said that my lungs and muscles will burn long after I'm done. Didn't believe him but I should have because I was huffin and puffin for a good 20 minuets afterwards. I truly believe that when I can do them every night for 2 weeks I will see some great results.

Don't give up on me, my pretend people I think are reading.. Happy Dropin'!

Sunday, January 22, 2012

2 Week Sibling Challenge

My big brother called me yesterday with a challenge. He got a few tips from some guys at his gym to slim the fat off his midsection. First of all, can I say that this big brother has never had a weight issue like my other brother and myself. He has always been in GREAT shape and has had the ability to tone up and lose weight with no problem. I envy him really. Although I think he's pretty spectacular I suppose we are our worst critics right?

Anyway, he calls me up saying that the tips the dudes gave him at the gym were amazing and that I should try it. He tells me that if I do these activities the right way EVERYDAY for 2 weeks, that my spare tire will get noticeably smaller. So here is My Weeks Focus: The 2 week Sibling Challenge.

Now this particular set of work outs has an official name. I will share this name and exercises with you after my 2 weeks are up. My brother also asked if I would post before and after pics.. gulp. So here I am before the challenge. I will even put my measurement on here just in case I'm not self-conscious enough. However, I feel the only way I will change anything about myself is I have to be real and honest. And I can't get anymore honest that publicly posting my pic and size to the world. I did it in my first post too. lets just hope something is a little smaller....




Weight:151
Waist:31
Hips:36
Thighs:24
Arms:12
Spare Tire(I measured the biggest part, right around my love handles and belly button) 34

Next can I just say that I went back to my very first post to check my measurements and I am happy to say, although I have fluctuated between 8 pounds and from that day to this I have only lost 2 pounds my waist, hips and arms have all gotten smaller. Sometimes weight doesn't really matter :) I am really excited. PLEASE measure yourself. Record it so you can use it as a reference! Just when you feel like you haven't gained any ground or are backtracking, check up on it and reference it. You may be pleasantly surprised like I am this morning, and this has only motivated me to keep going!!!

So there you have it folks. my 2 weeks starts today. I will try to post my progress and any tips or advice that I learn along the way. Here's to making the spare tire deflate! Happy Dropin'