Off the Horse

Whoops! I have missed 3 of my workouts and lets say my passed weekend eating habits were not great. Actually if I was on the biggest loser, Jillian would rip me a new one. I can't really make excuses for myself, that's how I set myself up for failure, but I am doing my best at getting back to it. I have been to scared to weigh myself, so I'm not sure how bad the damage is. I can tell a HUGE difference though in the way I feel. I'm more lethargic and I want to eat constantly. So truthfully getting back in the swing of things is harder than starting in the first place. I guess that's why the notorious statement for anyone who wants to loose the weight and be healthier is " It's a LIFESTYLE change". And why most quick trim diets set you up to fail.
I'm amazed at the difference. How I was only 2 weeks in, and I may not have looked all that different but I FELT so much better. Which in turn made my self confidence rise about 4 bars. now, I feel frumpy and chubby and I have this urge to just lay around and be lazy. My first day back on course was yesterday. I did well with my eating Monday, but I still missed the workout. It was hard at the gym, if I didn't have a friend with me, I probably would have just skipped or half-reared the workouts just to say I went in.
That's another thing. I have 2 wonderful friends who are doing this with me. They are super encouraging and its motivation to see how well they are doing, to know that I can do just as well as they are. Get a support group! My husband is a wonderful husband and father, but when it comes to motivating and encouraging me in this venture, he is a little lacking. I know when I am doing well, he lets me know that, but when I have weak moments or down spells, he is more the peer pressure type. He says " just one isn't going to hurt you" or " Just eat it, you know you will anyway". And lots of times I just have to think about how I will feel afterwards. How will I feel during the scarfing process? Well, those Taquitos would have been AMAZING last night. but I know that after eating them, I would have felt terrible, and its those emotions to avoid. If you let your self slip and you know you will beat yourself up about it later, RUN AWAY! Rewards are good and necessary to being successful. but down right hoarding is destructive.
I am supposed to have today off from the sweat, but seeing as I missed Monday, I will go in. I also decided that when these 30 days are over, I plan to start the book over.I don't feel like I have gone to my full potential with this challenge and that's disappointing seeing as I'm the one to make a big hoopla out of it. But all this goes to show that I am human and a regular person. I don't have a personal chef, or a personal trainer or a PR telling me to drop the weight or the paparazzi will be all over my bikini shots. I'm just your average Mommy of 2 trying to live a better lifestyle, fit into smaller clothes and be a good example for my children. I can't beat myself up over a few hiccups. Isn't that what we teach our children? to pick ourselves up if we get knocked down? Why is it so hard to do ourselves?